This post is kind of emo and may be annoying but I had to write it because I've been thinking about it for too long.

I worked a lot... past 4 months

Starting to question why I'm even earning money... just to spend em away again

But I like the new dress I got from a vintage shop last weekend...

I always wanted a shoulder strap since i was young(that's why my oc wears one) but was never allowed to wear it because my parents thought it looked out of date. but i look cool in it. so i bought it with my money.

I also wanted certain type of skirt but couldn't find one, which made me frustrated, so here's a vent comic.

(later i searched and found out that they're called culottes, or skirt pants, but still they're not skirts. i wear skirts not just to look good but also to feel the cool wind, which pants can't achieve, so that's still a bummer for me.)

oh and i saw a scenegirl? emo? at a metro station. it was just surreal. to see a 2025's korean dressed like that.

my old fl studio files, which i've thought were long gone, actually existed.(in retrospect i think i passed that folder thinking it was also flash file)

look how old they are.

some of them i don't even remember making it.

would it still be alright to call em 'mine'?

most of them are unfinished and just a bundle of patterns made with steinway piano lite.

i thought they sucked at one point but now i'm emotionally detached with them.

ironically now i could 'show them off' to my irl family and friends.

i thought no longer being ashamed of something i made was a process of 'nostalgializing' 'growing up' but now i can't help but think as if i've become a neglectful parent to my spoiled children who need education and care.

DELTARUNE CHAPTER 3+4 SPOILER AHEAD!!

(maybe you should've played it by now, but i'll be thoughtful because it's not even a month old yet.)

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this scene in particular made me too emotional.

naw the entire 3+4 theme did.

I used to cut out printed illustrations and play make-believe with them.

I wrote letters to fairies.

Deltarune reminded me of them.

And I realized I still haven't figured out what to do with that information. Do I forget them? Do I go back to search for desires that have already been burnt out?

Umm... I'll just do what I want to do at the moment!

They tryin to censor ‘extreme’ ‘politically wrong’ ‘conspiracy’ ‘possibility of rebellion’ on kakaotalk now😭😭

do they think they’re ccp or smth

wtf is wrong with them😭😭

democracy is doomed

it's 3 am in korea and I just finished playing ch3.

Worth the wait, and it far exceeds what i expected.

so many new infomations, so many new emotions

i'm only disappointed that there's no community to talk about it yet...

i thought i watched minecraft movie like a month ago!?!?!?!?!?

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i’ve been workin part times quite a lot

mostly tutoring

it’s fun i feel so clockwork

making money is much better than staying home all day

hard part is actually finding a job opening… the economy is in shambles… i even found a parent who wants free 3 hrs at once tutoring for their child…

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i also took some tests for college scholarships. though i don’t know when the strike will end…

oh i also got accepted to mensa now no one in my family will try to understand me

Mountain Dew, Chicken Pops, Onion Popcorn I ate for lunch

Today was the opening day of Minecraft movie in Korea.

There's this reeeeaaaalllly unpopular theater near the house that I enjoy because I like the quiet and dark atmosphere. It's rare to see it crowded(even on the opening day of Micky 17 there were only 2 people including me) but today there were soooooo many kids. and teens.

Fortunately most of them were well-behaved. Except one lil kid behind me kept kicking my seat. and some older teenagers were kinda annoying, mocking accents of the actors(it was not dubbed) and putting their feet on the front seat(though there were no people there)

The movie was.... okay i guess. not as cinematic or satisfying as Sonic the Hedgehog movie but still I could see the effort and clever points. Some references too...y Yaoi bait...

main characters were boring. I don't remember their name except gary. The sister was annoying af. The principle was more memorable. And I liked Malgosha. She's so one dimensionally evil and stuff. I like it when villains have tragic past but stay evil to the end anyways.

I'd give it a Despicable Me 2 out of Kungfu Panda 2.

it was hard to read but was fun.

but i don’t really get what’s going on overall, because, there’s so many characters and some of them are believing fake/exaggerated/misinterpreted history and act too emotional or too psychopathic… can’t actually believe anything the characters are saying until the end… not really sure what the author wanted to deliver… once they’re about virtue of sacrifice then the disaster of pressuring one to sacrifice?? Then acting for one’s emotion and then following army rules?? but i get it because what human would do in dire situations like natural disaster, war, etc is up to one’s imagination and there’s a lot of perspectives irl. In the end it narrows down to ‘hate and war is the main problem’.

Attack titan’s design is really cool.

i scrolled through wiki and..HANJI’S GENDER IS UNKNOWN??!????!?!? HUH?????

I THOUGHT HANJI WAS MALE?!!!????

(there’s no gendered terms in korean)

I like how everyone did some bullshit at least once but ended up sharing their opinions in the end.

tbh i think i went through and self-censored everyone’s opinion once in my lifetime.(please don’t cancel me)

i’ll go to ao3 to resolve what the ending couldn’t resolve now….

everyone should listen to nelward

They literally scammed me 10719 krw(8dollars)

So i was trying to start a trial and they just instantly steal 45000krw.

i demand refund and they say ‘ooh you purchased pro+ with learn lite our policy don’t give you full refund for that’

fuck them

i searched and it seems a lot of people fall for this intentionally designed site scam. Some get full refund but this alex guy is really stubborn. Alex generously offers to change annual plan to monthly plan giving me mercy of 34300 krw. Fuck you alex

you know what? I’m going to download 1000 scores from their site. In that one month.

i’m going to send them all out to my friends and families on holidays.

Fuck them again

don’t go to the site

don’t sign up

don’t give them your card info

student council & students vs professors

due to continued strike of students there's already doubled amount of students in 1st year, and it seems that students are going on strike this year again.

dean sent mail to all students warning that they will not tolerate this for another year and will consider expelling students that don't return.

if i go i'll get killed by other students and if i don't go i might have to study for college again

what would you do at this moment

so it was late 2021, we were slowly going back to school again(masks on though)

it was winter, which was near the end of the freshman year.

one day there was an announcement: apparently a student caught covid, so everyone, EVERYONE in school had to get diagnosed...everyone cheered. everything was in chaos.

we all literally walked/rode a bus/taxi/etc. to local health center.

luckily no one else was positive, and it was heard that the covid student was okay-just average symptoms of cold.

it was one the most memorable moments of my highschool years.