for first ten minutes you sketch what comes to your mind, thinking ‘oh its gon be sooo cool’

then for 40 minutes you start coloring and be like ‘how did i shade again?? wow this looks so ugly’

then at last 20 minutes you finally get hold of it and it looks good again

so for more than 50% of drawing you have no idea what you’re doing

it’s really ‘once in a lifetime by talking heads’ moment.

it kinda bugs me when i see people interpreting korean students the same as japanese students. if you want somewhat accurate interpretation of korean students or something you can ask me. on comment or mail.

high res: https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/mahogare/can-t-handle-this-anymore?updated=1712933757

i've got some calluses and i'm proud of them. i consider them as my war scar.

one on the thumb though, i don't think it's because of art. it must be because i played clarinet back then.

hey is it common for people to wear shoes on sofa in your country?

i live in korea and while drawing a non-korean character chilling on a sofa without shoes because we don’t wear shoes indoors and something uneasy was felt, cuz i certainly remembered that most characters i saw from my childhood shows were wearing shoes on sofa and bed.

is it just 90-00s thing or do people on other country do that? will draw accoringly.

life's been busy, i have to study a lot and focus more on spiritual level, like, i need some religious times to think about my life in the weekends.

there's one week vacation in the cram school in the summer so maybe i'll be back that week but i think i shouldn't think about posting anything till then and focus on important things.

==more trivial things below==

1. i want to be a doctor.

it's always been like this since 2021 because i had to study for exams as i was not an art student but a doctor(?) student(someone who wants to be a doctor i don't know what it's called in western terms) i was gone for months and back in winter.(winter vacation is longer than summer in korea)

me in NG is very different from me in the reality because i only show my hobby side here and don't talk about studying stuff much. i'm actually a very boring person in more realistic places who just loves and cries about exams. and as i mentioned before i want to be a doctor, because i like helping people out, and when helping out i like being reliable without worrying about peer pressure so i thought doctor was what i wanted to be. there's many more small reasons but i also have good grades.(that's 60% of the reason though)

despite me likely being a smart child parents always supported my interests for art and didn't stop me from doing them. so i guess here i am. i'm a nerd person who also makes things sometimes.

2: i'm buddhist.

i wasn't THAT religious till some months ago but i'm starting to rely more on religion to cry about the dreadful life. there's no meaning in doing so but after crying hard in the temple i feel better and get some momentum to do next things that i have to. dying and disappearing is scary but hearing about old people crying about it too is kinda relieving.

i'll keep drawing witches though because witches aren't buddhist thign(or is it? idunno idc)

whenever i see a request post in art forum i see at least 3 people, even more than 10 in posts that have more than two pages, still requesting things after the artist declares submission 'closed'.

i think it's pretty annoying, rude and disrespectful for the artist in that someone didn't even try looking for the outcome the artist posted for requested requests.

so please check if the request is closed, it's just few scrolls away. also enjoy what others and the artist are sharing.

i often find myself searching google to translate some korean words(first language) when i'm writing something about my characters lately. sometimes i have to search for 60% of the words in a sentence!

i just stopped speaking english after 2019 since speaking was just not in curriculums anymore, and my english capability has just declined since then. OR, perhaps it might be because i just have not much time to spend on the internet and grew too old to engage in any kind of ruffles going on in threads, rusting my keybord skills. maybe i might just forget how to read or write english one day. OR, i'm fricking getting brainrot from youtube algorithm.(so i stopped going into youtube)

but seriously, last time i read any thicc(200<pgs) english book was like, 3 years ago. and it's not about waning interests in literature, but about not being able to afford any time to do so! my priority of free time goes to arts, not to thicc books in secondary language that i would have absolutely no one around to discuss about!! when i was young adults would often say, "read more books you won't have time later yadayada,,," and they were right. or i'm aging. i'm 18. i can't imagine what i'll be like when i'm 26.

nahhh i'll be finnnneee. it's not like i have mental illness or somethin

anyways here's the conclusion.

old(18) korean's advice: write stupid things on the internet and fight with absolute strangers about literally anything if you want to keep your english skill tight

lately i've been pretty religious and copied sutra by hand. while doing so i found a god named 'Mahoraga' who was being named with other gods. I was curious so I searched the internet but found nothing much helpful... because an anime had a character with the same name.

i hate it when media names someone a common name or god. but then i think it back by thinking it can't be avoided if a media takes significant influence from existing lore.

anyways here is related drawing of mahoraga i found in a religious news site.

he is a god of music and has a dragon inside his mouth.

now i just need to do an A rated collab

today i got my usb working. to do that i had to:

learn about some basics(sudo, root, mount/unmount, lsusb, chmod, cp(copy) -r, udev, etc)

create mounting destination

find and mount usb to mounting destination

download thunar to access usb in root and change the permission

fourth step i did not mean to download an app to do that. i tried terminal command first but i think i'm confusing file directory and device name, it kept saying file does not exist. i'm not sure so i'm planning to read actual book about it this weekend.

meanwhile i learned the huge importance of some basic apps.

i also got audio working, which also involved downloading an app.

i feel kinda guilty for it though, because ngl terminal looks cooler and i'm just that kind of guy.