life's been busy, i have to study a lot and focus more on spiritual level, like, i need some religious times to think about my life in the weekends.
there's one week vacation in the cram school in the summer so maybe i'll be back that week but i think i shouldn't think about posting anything till then and focus on important things.
==more trivial things below==
- i want to be a doctor.
it's always been like this since 2021 because i had to study for exams as i was not an art student but a doctor(?) student(someone who wants to be a doctor i don't know what it's called in western terms) i was gone for months and back in winter.(winter vacation is longer than summer in korea)
me in NG is very different from me in the reality because i only show my hobby side here and don't talk about studying stuff much. i'm actually a very boring person in more realistic places who just loves and cries about exams. and as i mentioned before i want to be a doctor, because i like helping people out, and when helping out i like being reliable without worrying about peer pressure so i thought doctor was what i wanted to be. there's many more small reasons but i also have good grades.(that's 60% of the reason though)
despite me likely being a smart child parents always supported my interests for art and didn't stop me from doing them. so i guess here i am. i'm a nerd person who also makes things sometimes.
2: i'm buddhist.
i wasn't THAT religious till some months ago but i'm starting to rely more on religion to cry about the dreadful life. there's no meaning in doing so but after crying hard in the temple i feel better and get some momentum to do next things that i have to. dying and disappearing is scary but hearing about old people crying about it too is kinda relieving.
i'll keep drawing witches though because witches aren't buddhist thign(or is it? idunno idc)
